i hate being overlooked.
everyone complains about being alone and not understood, then turn around and has everyone’s love and support.
you have no fucking idea what it means to be alone.
every conversation i try to speak in, im not heard.
im put outside of every single circle of people, even those who were left over from every other circle.
im just here.
taking up space.
i try so hard to be someone people would like.
i try to be friendly.
i try to take all that is put on me. i just absorb the hate, the slander, the everything against me and try to put on a smile.
im not good enough.
i wont ever be good enough.
i get another shot in college. another shot in Med school. another shot in my career.
3 chances to hopefully fix what the first 4 chances did not fix.
i wanna get out of here.
i wanna be who i am again.
